Assalamualaikum & Hi, readers! (Um, wait. Do I even have one?) lol. I am using this blog as a place where I can spread good things & let things out. I think it's the best place to do so because not everyone is going to understand you & actually try to accept your thoughts. I must say, these past few months are THE HARDEST to me. Everything is falling apart, it's like you're going to stuck in darkness & there's no way to see light again. *LONG SIGH* Hope things will get better, bi iznillah! :) I know I haven't been ''around'' for a quite sometime >: I have my own reasons, believe me. I just have to keep it to myself. Talk to less people. Mind my own life. Disconnect from all of this & start to reconnect with the necessary things.

Assalamualaikum & Hi! Finally I have the courage to start blogging again after years. *A lil stoked inside* I was actually busy with school & I am glad that I am done with school now so I have nothing to worry about (no, jk. I still do. I am actually stressed out to the point where I am actually calm, like I have accepted my fate ha yes that's where I am) My life in Johor Bahru was indisputably an amazing roller coaster ride & I reckon that explains it all, just in one sentence. Nice. Okay I am not going to write a long ass story about my school anymore because it is over? So I am back to summarize the 2 years of my I-do-know-what-did-I-do stories. I am going to start with my 2014, a execrable year I MUST SAY. Here are the reasons why :

1)  I need to shift school from Sekolah Aminuddin Baki to MRSM Johor Bahru
      ( I have mixed feelings about this )
2) <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< struggling each day to survive >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
3) I lost my one & only dad on the 26th November. ( My life has changed since then )

The biggest thing that have ever happened in my whole life is obviously the 3rd one. Losing the man that I love the most because that was probably one of my biggest fear. Even it has been about 1 year & 6 months now, I can tell that sometimes I need to convince myself that he is gone, forever. But alhamdulilah I am immensely blessed to have supportive & lovely family and friends around me. With each passing day, I believe that His plans are much better than what I think that is better for me. After my dad passed away, I started to be more independent & I learn to appreciate things more for the sake of Allah. I must admit that I had a very wonderful childhood life back then, my life was like a wish-granting machine but when I look back, I have realised that is not what I want in my life. The fact of life is that materials do not necessarily bring you happiness although it is hard to understand sometimes, especially in a society that tries very hard to teach you otherwise. As I grow older, I know that there is a difference between material happiness, which implies having all the basic/sometimes extravagant comforts necessary to live life & spiritual happiness, which implies something else altogether. That's why you can see that some of the poor families can live a happier life in spite of the fact that they can't have what you are having now because you can be "rich" in ways that have nothing to do with money. They are blessed with what they have, their life & undeniably sometimes they would give more than us. < out of sudden I feel so inspired lol >  tapi tu lah life lesson. < JUST GIVING MY 2 CENTS > But whatever it is, everything starts with our intentions, make sure it is a good one purposely for lilahi taala. InsyaAllah. We can have both hasanah in this Dunya & Akirah.

OKAY I HAVE babbled TOO MUCH,

2015 aka senior year? LOL. I do not feel like one.

It was a good year, better than the previous year. I have nothing much to say, all I did was BELAJAR BELAJAR BELAJAR SAMPAI TERTIDO SAMPAI SPM.
Oh yea, my SPM results was okay & bersyukur because all the hard works finally paid off! I really believe on the power of Usaha, Doa & Tawakkal because I have faith that Allah will ease the way and  yes He did although when I was in Joba, there were certain people who loved to doubt & question my effort & my ability but I am happy I have made!

To those who have actually read the whole post, it would be much much better if you can do me a favor to sedekahkan Al-Fatihah to my late father, Sahazali & I will take that as a token of appreciation. Jazakkalah :)

Assalamualaikum & Hi
 the fact that I'm no longer on Twitter really makes me happy. Not for a long time but maybe for a week? I guess I need a break from Twitter. See, I am a type of person who is very attached to the Internet and especially to Twitter. I'd be scrolling down my timeline 24/7 reading all the random tweets if I'm not tweeting & I still think that it is so enjoyable. It would be a good idea if I take a break from Twitter for a week, maybe? 

I wanna thank bro Aiman for his useful tips. Sometimes, we have to disconnect to reconnect. Maybe it's not too late for me to change. Twitter is no harm. It's good actually but only when we know how to manage our time. Yasmin Mogahed says once in a while we have to let go of the things we love doing the most, so we can find something better. 

Assalamualaikum, alhamdulilah masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas pada hari ini 2 Muharram 1435H. Syukur syukur! It has been awhile since my last post. I kinda miss blogging hehe oh yea! PMR is over! alhamdulilah everything went well, I really hope for the best, InsyaAllah :) Allah knows whats best for all of us! I wanna share something with all of you, one thing that I have been thinking lately. It happened to me too, to all of us. Human beings. When we're depressed, we always blame others. Why am I tested? Is Allah angry with me? Why me? It's irrelevant how some people think that there is no way to be happy. Allah is waiting for you to praise Him.


“Or do you think that you will enter Paradise while such [trial] has not yet come to you as came to those who passed on before you? They were touched by poverty and hardship and were shaken until [even their] messenger and those who believed with him said, 
‘When is the help of Allah?’ Unquestionably, the help of Allah is near.” [Qur’an, 2:214]


But why?

Everything happens for a reason. Tests are a way to purify us. As the Phophet SAW said, 

No fatigue, nor disease, nor sorrow, nor sadness, nor hurt, nor distress befalls a Muslim, even if it were the prick he receives from a thorn, but that Allah expiates some of his sins for that

Our aim is to earn Allah's pleasure & Jannah (the paradise) and that's why we have to seek for forgiveness regurlary to keep us close to Allah. If we feel that we're far away from Him, the test is usually to bring us closer to Him because humans, like us tend to forget Allah when we're happy. The fact is undeniable. It reminds us that no one will be there for us everytime except for Him.